MELTDOWN:
My
stomach is crinched, my eyes are partly watery, and I have goose bumps
on my arms. That moment where you think you are special but you are
really just a fixture in another persons fantasy that has been running
along in their mind body and soul way before you were even thought about
lol. I am so silly.
Don't
get me wrong I am not the victim. I am just on my twin flame bulls#$%
again smh. I can only attract what I am. Knowing the whole truth helps
in my evolution as I co create reality. But after this meditation the
truth has surged through my mind and body in such lucid and real ways I
can sense it like never before. The dreams, the thoughts . . . is the
subconscious mind not just as real and able to creating our every day
experiences?
When
i was in meditation I saw every face of every girl I ever been with or
thought about sleeping with. Because of my desire for sex that I try to
keep hidden from my conscious mind but which is now blown wide open. .
.and how I believe society views sex and intimacy I am still uneasy at
the rate I have been able to attract lovers and move on. Just about
every face came into my minds eye smh one by one. I say this because
right now I am in a major upheaval of decision making process and a
small part of it I actually have control over and cause in the matter.
Will I create more of the same thing I have been accustomed to creating
since as far as I can remember?
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