MELTDOWN: My stomach is crinched, my eyes are partly watery, and I have goose bumps on my arms. That moment where you think you are special but you are really just a fixture in another persons fantasy that has been running along in their mind body and soul way before you were even thought about lol. I am so silly. Don't get me wrong I am not the victim. I am just on my twin flame bulls#$% again smh. I can only attract what I am. Knowing the whole truth helps in my evolution as I co create reality. But after this meditation the truth has surged through my mind and body in such lucid and real ways I can sense it like never before. The dreams, the thoughts . . . is the subconscious mind not just as real and able to creating our every day experiences? When i was in meditation I saw every face of every girl I ever been with or thought about sleeping with. Because of my desire for sex that I try to keep hidden from my conscious mind but which is now blown wide...